Iansá Magazine

By Grace Incarnate

The purpose of healing is to harden yourself with the intent of becoming soft again. It’s a cosmic dare to reclaim the fleshy, gentle parts that you don’t want to acknowledge, because the last time you owned them publicly, you were struck there by someone you thought you could trust, and that really hurt. But the pain only means that you have the capacity to be tender, and your jump to steel yourself against the world means that you believe your softness is something worth protecting. This is absolutely and unequivocally correct. However, you can’t forget the softness that lies under the steel. Your tenderness is your portal to unconditional love.

What does the state of Palestine say about humanity’s ability to remain tender? Does the pain mean that humanity’s spirit is dead or alive? And what if truly freeing Palestine isn’t about resistance at all? What if it’s actually about taking our healing seriously, so we can grow beyond arbitrary state lines and eclipse all suffering with the power of unbridled love? Are you even able to love freely when you’re restricted? Can you properly pour your heart out if you still have it in your mind that you need to resist? Is liberation meant to be contracted or expansive? Is it more important to be against something or for something? How long can you give energy to something you claim to hate and expect the situation to change in your favor?

These are the questions I’ve been pondering lately. They strike me while I’m engaged in relatively mundane activities like brushing my teeth or doing dishes, in between my wild visions of portal-inducing acts of love that occupy my mind for most of the day. I’m in love like I’ve never been before, and it doesn’t have anything to do with the people in my life. The depth of my love and my ability to stay swaddled in it has to do with me and me only. I frequently pray that maybe one day the expanse of the universe will be able to meet me in the infinite depths of my gushy feelings, free of any earthly constrictions.

I suppose the life forms of this universe in question may be wondering how exactly to go about meeting me in this beautifully everlasting pit of mush. I’ll walk you through the process, but only under the condition that you bring someone along with you. While its true that some really significant breakthroughs can happen while you’re alone on the spiritual path, I personally think that having a companion along for at least some of the ride makes everything much less arduous. The adventure becomes that much sweeter, especially if you have both been hurt in the same way and choose to seek out healing together.

Millions of souls across the ether were deeply wounded on October 7, 2023, and many of them have not recovered since then. They’re stuck in a state of harsh critique and searing pain that they don’t know how to process due to a colonially induced severing of the spirit from its source, which happened many generations ago. As a result, these souls have forgotten themselves entirely and operate only within the realm of the physical body and material surroundings. There are too many spirit crushing things happening on this planet’s material plane to ever name, and the soulless individuals who believe they dictate what happens on Earth seek to keep it that way. When a spirit only focuses on the physical, it naturally begins to decay, and any wounds it has incurred will begin to fester. Genuine healing is never impossible or entirely out of reach for any soul, but the longer the wound has been festering, the more grueling the repair process will be. However, the things that take a concerted effort over a long period of time are usually the most worthwhile, so don’t be put off if you’ve been in a pit of misery for longer than you can remember but want to start on the road to recovery now.

To transcend from the depths of despair into the depths of love, one has to be lifted out of the valley and then placed onto the mountaintop, from where they can then willingly choose to descend into the deep everlasting once again. But don’t expect to be divinely lifted out of the valley if you can’t even acknowledge that you’re there to begin with. This is the first step to true healing: admitting that what you experienced really happened, that it hurt, and that you haven’t been able to effectively mitigate the pain of your experience up until this point. At least half of the work gets done during this process, because you’re making a conscious effort to swallow your pride, which is one of the largest hindrances on the spiritual path.

After you’ve come to acknowledge the depths of your pain, it’s now up to you to develop a sustained loving awareness of it. Can you cradle the wounded tatters of your spirit without judgement? Can you simply bear witness to your own pain and decide that you are worthy of love both because of and despite it? This part is difficult, because it requires you to acknowledge that a lot of the ideas you’ve had about yourself up until this point aren’t true at all, and that you’ve really just been spinning a web of illusions to distract yourself from your pain points. Once you make it here, the urge to pull away and run for the hills means you’re on the right track. It’s your responsibility to stay in these depths with full awareness until you finally understand that you are worthy of being lifted out of your despair.

This will be a good time to check in with your partner for this journey, whether its a friend, a therapist, a phone camera or a journal. Talk about how this newfound compassion for yourself in your time of wounded weakness is changing your perspective on life. But it’s also worth mentioning that the transitions you ease through may not be immediately apparent, and that’s okay too. True healing is a never ending process and identifiable patterns take time to develop.

The searing pain of the entire world did not originate on October 7, 2023, but it was indeed a collective trauma-versary that serves as an entry point into the human soul and more expansive levels of consciousness. If you’re interested in doing spirit work but don’t know where to begin, I’d recommend starting there. Whatever you experienced in your body on that day and the years since then is real, and at times, it may have felt like you were drowning in something you couldn’t quite place. I suppose, in a way, you absolutely were drowning, but its actually been your soul seeking a way to breathe and expand out of its wounded, contracted state this entire time.

I asked the archangel Gabriel (who serves as the foundation of the tree of life, according to the Kabbalah) to return me to the site of the collective wound so I could effectively articulate this message. A wild compression overtook my midsection and caused my body to flex and contort in a way that was entirely suffocating. I let out a relieved exhale when the sensation finally left me. Needless to say, your spirit is actively being crushed, and it’s been happening for so long that you’ve gotten used to it. But beloved, if you want to see a liberated world, you have to start with yourself first. Your spirit is the portal through which the universe will meet itself in freedom once again. Your body is a door, and it’s time for you to walk through.

This is all I can say for now. You all have enough to digest after this transmission, anyhow. I’ll be back with more coherent sentences as I receive them from my guides. Until then, I’ll be in my never-ending mush pit.

Hope to see you there soon.